So after 12-13 years, one would think that I'd know you inside out.
Truth is, I barely know you at all.

On the outside, you put on a strong front.
On the inside, you are a tangle of emotions and memories.

You find solace in my friendship, you see your untainted reflection in my eyes.
You know that I do not judge, yet you hide you do not want me to see.

Are you perhaps ashamed that we are worlds apart?
I call you friend, brother even, and deep down inside you know I do not lie.

Many years back, you woke me up to tell me you were going away.
I knew not what you meant.

"How long I asked?"
"A long time." you replied.

You need not have been alone.
All you had to do was trust in me.

We finally met again, after many years.
Perhaps I was the first friend you remembered,
You were definitely not last in my mind.

Now we walk our own paths, and very different paths they are.
I walk hand in hand, with a few of my closest friends.
I trust them all, and I know I would do anything for them as they would for me.
I give to them as they give to me.

I glance out into the distance, and I see you watching me closely
Curiously examining every single step I take.
I am worried, for how can you walk your own difficult path,
If you keep both eyes on me?

As expected, you stumble and you slip.
I hold out a helping hand, and for a few fleeting moments, you catch your balance.
I try to warn you, but you know my words before I speak them.
You read them out to me, but they sound empty and hollow.

You hear the sound of your own empty promises,
And you can feel your own hollowness.
Something inside you cries out in the darkness
For strength? For forgiveness? For respect?
I do not know.

You decide to walk in the shadows in which you are familar with.
And as before, I lose sight of you.
The torch that you took from my hand burns but momentarily,
And the light soon disappears.
Perhaps the flickering lights you saw in the distance disappeared as well.
They were never the stars you thought you saw.

You promised to return my torch,
Yet it lingers not in my mind.
I worry for the path you were meant to tread is close to mine.
But when I look over, it is empty.

I cannot see far into the darkness,
And I hear not your footsteps any longer.
My heart is heavy.


Lyrics from my favorite song.

Believe by Savatage

So after all these one night stands
You've ended up with heart in hand
A child alone, On your own, Retreating
Regretful for the things you're not
And all dreams you haven't got
Without a home, A heart of stone, Lies bleeding
And for all the roads you followed
And for all you did not find
And for all the things you had to leave behind

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams
Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
All I ask of you is
Believe

Your childhood eyes were so intense
While bartering your innocence
For bits of string, Grown-up wings, You needed
But when you had to add them up
You found that they were not enough
To get you in, Pay for sins repeated
And for all the years you borrowed
And for all the tears you cried
And for all the fears you had to keep inside

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams
Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
And all I ask of you is
Believe